I like the smell of the earth, the touch of waves, the taste of berries, the sight of trees, the sound of laughter, and the feeling of being fully alive.
I am the traveling clown.
In the midst of what some would call a depression clad breakdown I came into full light and needed to leave my current location in order to find out things about the world that one can not do in their hula-hoop of comfort. I left dead, but open.
I left. I traveled. I wrote. I saw. I felt. I experienced life like never before. When I came back, I came back alive.
I came to the realization that if I didn’t at least try to go after my dreams then I was better off dead. I learned that focusing on me is better than focusing on those who do not care about me. I was so concerned with what people would think of me and what I wanted to do that I lost myself in other people’s views of who I should be and what I should be doing with my life in order to be happy. In my travels I was able to open my mind. I was in the deep need to do what I needed to do in order to be happy.
I learned that I am a small being in this big world. During my travels I saw many beautiful acts of nature. I witnessed the sun setting and rising over several different landscapes, rock formations that were developed over thousands of years. I saw trees so large and with intricate designs that in no way those beautiful objects could have been created by a single explosion.
I learned that time is precious. I do not know how much time we are given. One day everyone will die. I don’t know where, when, or how, but I do know for a fact that one day I will die. Everyone will. Our species is not one that is invincible. Everyday I wake up is a precious opportunity to do something I love or at least get me one step closer. I was born original; I will not die a copy.
Live your life in a way that will allow you to be happy. It will be difficult, but if you really want you’ll work hard to get it. You think you have time, but you really don’t and the sooner you figure that out the better.
I am the traveling clown. This is my life.